I don't know

I don't know what I have left. When you came you ripped me open. you made me give you everything. I thought you cherished my gift, me. But you went away. I knew you would but you are keeping yourself from me. 

don't you know what it feels like to be ignored? It's soul crushing. to be ignored by someone who's supposed to care. I know you're not ready to love me. I can deal with that, but aren't you supposed to care? even a little? how can you be so cruel. I'm scared that I'll never be whole. that you took what made me strong with you and didn't give it back. I thought a Dom was supposed to take care of his sub. I know I'm not a full time sub but you opened something in me and I don't know how to handle it. I need you and I feel like you are throwing me away. Like trash. I don't understand. 

I feel so broken. please help me. I don't want to feel this way anymore. If you don't want me, just tell me. Give me back what you took with you. Please Sir.
I can't do this anymore. We had so little time together and yet I feel like it was an eternity. I've never felt so strongly about someone. 

Every time you ignore me you slice a piece of me off and throw it away. Someday there will be nothing left. Unfixable. Unlovable. By the time you figure out that you want me there will be nothing left. 

I need you

I need you

I need you to spank me

I need you to flog me

I need you to fuck me

I need you to choke me

I need to cum so hard

I was thinking about you all day today. 

I need to  you hurt me until I cry and beg you to stop. 

I hate you.

why do you do this to me?

you know I'm falling in love with you.

how can you ignore me. Why? Why do you hurt me so? You say you've thought of me for 17 years? Any yet you finally get what you want and now you're throwing it away. It's not fair. Why am I punished for your cowardice? I'm a good person. I deserve better but what I want is you. I need you to love me. I need you to want me.

Why do you do this to me?

I hate you.

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you

I hate you for making me love you.

I get it now

I get it now. You were pushing me away because you were afraid of me. You are just as afraid of me as I am of you. you don't have to be afraid of me. I already love you. don't be afraid to love me. really? you test me? what would I do if you said I'm getting on a plane to come be with you? What time do I pick you up at the airport? That's my answer. you didn't think I would say that did you? Where are you going to live? Well, you'll live with me until we can find a bigger place. What will you do? You'll get a job. And we will be together. That's it. I know you have your reasons for being where you are. That's fine. Take care of your responsibilities. I want you. I need you, but I can wait. I've waited 17 years. I can wait a little longer. Yes I'm greedy. Yes I want it all. But I'm also, kind and patient and I love you so I want whats best for you too. Don't you know what's best for you is me?

I miss your face

I miss your face. Your eyes burrow to my soul. I miss your hands on my skin. In my hair. Your kisses make me smile so much my face hurts! Why are you so far away. Yes I'm a damn sap. what do you want from me. I have loved you since I was 17 years old. It scares me. You scare me. You have lived so much. Experienced so much. I feel like I won't be enough. That you will lose interest in me. I don't want to be so needy, but I need you. I need you to need me. I want to feel your hand on my ass. Your mouth on my pussy. Your cum on my face. I want all of you. I want all of you to want all of me. 

this is insane. 

A dreamworld (Part 1)

I woke this morning after having this dream and I had to write it down. I hope you enjoy it.

As I came awake I realized that I was not in my bed. The darkness was all around me. My body couldn't move. I was on my back, my arms strapped down, my legs strapped down. I can't move, I can't see and the panic was starting to set in. As I started to struggle a cool hand was placed on my belly.

"Stop, you are only going to hurt yourself." The voice was completely foreign to me. As was the touch. His hand started to stroke my skin, gently exploring my belly and up to my breasts. This is when I realized, I was nude. Oh god, what is going on? I'm completely helpless. I don't know who has me. I start to struggle again, the panic running high. I can feel the tears gathering.

"You belong to me" The voice was whispering in my ear. "You are mine, you cannot escape so don't bother trying" I could feel his breath on my face. The kiss was soft and gentle. I felt almost compelled to return it. His hands were big, I could feel them touching my face. As they started to move down my body, he paused. His big hands were wrapped around my throat.

"You belong to me, don't forget that" His hands started to squeeze and the full panic set in. My breathing became labored and wheezy. It felt like an eternity before he released me and walked away. Shaking like a leaf, all I could do was breath and wait.

It's been a while

So, it's been a while since I've posted anything. Sorry about that.

Life is going pretty well with me. My biggest problem right now is I need to cumm!

anyone want to help me out with that?