Where to start?

I’ve always know that I was different. I know everyone says that, but it’s hard to explain. I guess it starts when what you feel is natural; the response is “you’re so weird”. It puts you on a road. A path that never seems to end, I know, I’m only 30 but sometimes I feel lost and sometimes I try to remember that I’m found.

I start this story to help me find my way, maybe to help explore the inner workings of my mind without judgment. Well, I suppose there will be some judgment, as I am hardest on myself.

Ok, here is reality; I have the highest sex drive of anyone I know. I can cum for hours, rest and start all over again. I know no one who can keep me sated. People laugh you know, like that’s a problem. It is a problem when a man thinks of you as whore because you want sex more than he does. Women in this day and age have to contend with different mindsets. Like sex to much, you’re a slut and a whore. Don’t like it enough, you’re frigid. Who are you? Who am I? Why is it "ok" for men to sleep around with anyone and anything that moves, but for a woman to enjoy multiple lovers they are a slut?

On that train of though, Men that enjoy fucking, revel in it, and will do things with women that they would never consider doing with their wives? Instead of finding the right women for their life and compatible for their sex life they find what they’ve been programmed to think they want. They want the perfect Barbie doll wife and when they get it, they discover they are still not happy. They cheat on their wives to find the sexual pleasure they need instead of finding a wife that will satisfy him?

It baffles the mind.....