honesty, the debate

So, I got into this conversation with a friend of mine about honesty. See I'm a big fan of being open and honest with people. I mean, I don't walk up to people and give them full disclosure about my life. But when I'm asked or the discussion comes up, let's just say I'm not shy. My friend says I don't need to give full disclosure.

For example. I'm Bi, so if I'm dating a straight guy, why tell him? I think that's ridiculous. I don't want to hide who I am. And I feel like I'm being dishonest and misrepresenting myself.

I'm also an Atheist, I don't require the person I'm dating to be an atheist (though it would be nice) as long as they don't try and convert me. However a large percent of the Americans seem to have some kind of issue with Atheists. So why get emotionally involved in a relationship when it will never work out.

But I'm a good person. I'm Genuine, Caring and respectful. I just don't understand why I can't find that 1 person in 100 who wants me the way I am.

PS. I finished my finals. Got all A's woohoo!

finals

I'm almost done with finals. I think I'm doing pretty good!

Having sex vs Making Love vs Fucking

Having sex is great. I like it. Fucking can be amazing, but it's been a long time since I've made love with someone. You know what I mean, the passion, the kissing, the way you touch your lover. It's completely different. I miss it. to feel your lover's weight on you. Trying to get so close to each other you can't tell where one of you stops and the other begins. Hands roaming, mouths searching, yearning for each other's taste. The sighs you can feel rumbling from each other. Being completely lost in each other.

I want to get back to that feeling.

cuddle

anyone up for a cuddle?

then maybe some great sex?

then more cuddle?

and repeat?

horny

don't you just love being horny? I do, of course, I'm always horny. just got done masterbating. wish I had someone fingering me or fucking me instead of my vibe, oh well.

someday I will find that person who wants to handcuff me to their bed and make me cum until I beg them to stop. of course, it might take a while.....

oh well, off to school I go. I got my massage table today. very exciting. anyone want a massage?

someone for me

I am strong when I am not weak.
I'm caring.
I will take your pain if it makes you feel better.
I will not worship your god.
I will not hate.
I will love beyond all measure.

is there someone out there for me?

I wish you still cared

I wish you still cared about me.
I wish you wanted to talk to me.
I wish I didn't have to call you ever time we talk.
I really don't know what happened.
I thought we were friends, but now I feel like an obligation to you.
I wish you still cared...

news

so, sorry it's been so long since I've posted. Lots of changes going on. I started school for Massage Therapy. It's awesome so far. I've only been to two classes but everyone is great and I'm very excited.

More later