I get it now

I get it now. You were pushing me away because you were afraid of me. You are just as afraid of me as I am of you. you don't have to be afraid of me. I already love you. don't be afraid to love me. really? you test me? what would I do if you said I'm getting on a plane to come be with you? What time do I pick you up at the airport? That's my answer. you didn't think I would say that did you? Where are you going to live? Well, you'll live with me until we can find a bigger place. What will you do? You'll get a job. And we will be together. That's it. I know you have your reasons for being where you are. That's fine. Take care of your responsibilities. I want you. I need you, but I can wait. I've waited 17 years. I can wait a little longer. Yes I'm greedy. Yes I want it all. But I'm also, kind and patient and I love you so I want whats best for you too. Don't you know what's best for you is me?

I miss your face

I miss your face. Your eyes burrow to my soul. I miss your hands on my skin. In my hair. Your kisses make me smile so much my face hurts! Why are you so far away. Yes I'm a damn sap. what do you want from me. I have loved you since I was 17 years old. It scares me. You scare me. You have lived so much. Experienced so much. I feel like I won't be enough. That you will lose interest in me. I don't want to be so needy, but I need you. I need you to need me. I want to feel your hand on my ass. Your mouth on my pussy. Your cum on my face. I want all of you. I want all of you to want all of me. 

this is insane.